Monday, June 20, 2005

In The Box: Live Fire and Hands Across the Desert

The "Box" is a 1,000 square mile (the size of Rhode Island) area of desert in the middle of the Mojave that has been set apart for military purposes since before WWII. Up until recently the mock battles that took place at the National Training Center (NTC) were based on conventional warfare. Previously armies had territories which they had to defend, boundaries and phase lines on a linear battlefield. The battlefield which we were entering had been modified to reflect current operations. The Army has literally built little towns in this desert simulating Iraqi villages. We also had our own Forward Operating Bases (FOBS) behind a wire. Our troops ran patrol and security missions with cordon searches. We were often targets of insurgents either by IED's, suicide bombers, and ambushes.

The days in the FOB went fast even though bathing was a luxury. Most of the evenings were spent reacting to "mortar" fires by doning our body armor and walking over to the aid station to help with patients and offer pastoral care. Throughout the time there was a mix of notional and real patients. One young woman almost had her head crushed when the trap door of a 113 personnel transporter opened while she was standing under it. Luckily she only lost some teeth. A couple were forced up into her maxilla. When the Commander and I visited her in the hospital, her face was amazingly free of any marks. She was one very lucky young soldier. I told her how good she looked and we spent a few moments in prayer together.

SPC Hargrave and I were the only UMT to participate in live fire training. Basically, the point of our being part of the exercise was for practice during convoy operations. Due to the nature of the enemy and the war being fought, it is during convoy operations that we are currently most vulnerable. SPC Hargrave helped to "kill" a sniper that, so far, no other team has killed. I helped load ambulances and attend to the wounded any time we weren't the ones who were "killed." The reason we were targeted so often was because we were among the very few Humvees in the convoy. All the rest of the vehicles were much larger and more protected.

Whenever we weren't in action we were either sacked out because of the stifling heat or attending all sorts of meetings. The chaplain with whom I shared responsibility on the FOB (and who is a superior officer) just loved having regular pow-wows and offering critiques. I kept looking to see if there was an umbilical cord on me that the doc forgot to cut... The Army accomodates a wide variety of leadership styles. CH E has a wealth of experience and wisdom; it's just that he likes to dispense it spoonful by spoonful.

The Observer/Controllers who were working with us were truly excellent and encouraging. One was especially complimentary of me and SPC Hargrave. The OC's regularly followed us, gave coaching and critiques. At NTC, the OC's are hand selected and rotated every two years. It is considered an honored teaching position because one is working with soldiers who are about to deploy. In essence the teacher is making sure the soldiers are ready for combat and feel personally responsible that soldiers survive.

Several evenings I visited our "morgue" to see the "dead" and learn more about soldiers and the various companies missions. I would usually ask soldiers about their religious affliliation. If they did not claim one, I would often ask if they were baptised or taken to church as a child. Many responded "yes." I had more than a handfull of lapsed Roman Catholics. Sometimes the dead were forgotten in the morgue instead of being processed. I tried to help any way I could to speed up the process.

One day, a SSG assigned SPC Hargrave for a detail. Initially the SSG asked me whether he could assign the SPC to the detail. I said "yes," but then SPC Hargrave reminded me that the OC's had scheduled a review. I told the SSG that Hargrave would not be going. Politics occurred (I'll just leave it at that) and I found that I was on the short end of the stick. I decided as a means of protest that I would accompany a group of over 100 soldiers out to the desert to pick up trash (aka Hands Across the Desert) rather than show up for a ceremony to which I had been "invited." I think that the message was clearly sent that SPC Hargrave and I operate as a team. When we got back in the evening, everyone including my commander was especially nice to me. The benefit to me was that it showed that I was willing to go where the soldiers were. And I met and laughed with several. It was a really good day on many levels.

The porta-johns often had very colorful and often vulgar grafitti. I couldn't help myself. I would usually read it and laugh outloud if it wasn't downright hateful or degrading. One of my favorites that reflected just how clever soldiers are was "Lord Asherton cannot hold his liquor." I loved all the small ironies of this blurb.

Worship and Bible studies were meaningful. After we returned from the box, I held a Bible study and used two texts for meditation. One was Jacob wrestling with the angels and the other was Jesus' test in the desert. We spoke candidly about where we wrestle, how we've been wounded, and the nature of temptation. We also noted how angels minister to Jesus after his encounter with the devil in the desert.

Communion 19 June 05


Communion 19 June 05
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Communion 19 June 05 close


Communion 19 June 05 close
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Eucharistic Prayer 19 June 05


Eucharistic Prayer 19 June 05
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CH (MAJ) Peter Lawson delivered the message the day after we returned from block leave. I served as celebrant for the communion service.

Mom & Dad June 05


Mom & Dad June 05
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Mom was tearful as we said our goodbyes.

Sherman and Gunner


Sherman and Gunner
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I spent part of my block leave with my favorite dogs...

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Hot Water & Hot Desert

The night before the convoy into the desert, we staged more than 120 vehicles. We slept next to our vehicles so that we could rise and leave early. It was a real treat to sleep under the stars. I slept the most soundly than I had in a while. In the morning I got behind the wheel of a Humvee with SGT Fitzgerald, a susinct man with a nasal voice, and my chaplain assistant SPC Hargrave. The vehicle belonged to SGM DeLorenzo

The fact that I was behind the wheel of this vehicle was a minor miracle. The day before this event, I almost did everything within my power to avoid going out in the desert with my unit and even considered resigning my commission. The Observer/Controllers (course trainers) for the chaplains had told us to secure our vehicles and show up and a pre training inspection. I had been told point blank by my commander that I was not to draw a vehicle. This was unusual since chaplains, by Army doctrine, are guaranteed transportation and that all six other unit ministry teams had drawn their vehicle. I had approached the commander on a least two other occasions to plead my case. When I didn’t get any satisfaction, I took the issue to the brigade chaplain. The chaplains as a group even had a conversation around the issue. No one could understand exactly where this was coming from. I was told that I could borrow a vehicle from the SGM anytime I wanted, but that I was not going to draw a personal vehicle.

I made arrangements with the SGM the night before the pre inspection to borrow a vehicle. I was told that I would have a vehicle at 0630. I woke up at 0500 and reminded detachment SGT Rowe that I needed a vehicle. He gave me the paperwork to the vehicle and told me that it was three rows back. SPC Hargrave and I searched back and forth up and down—no vehicle matching the number that I was given. At this point it was getting late and I was growing disgusted with feeling that we were being jerked around with this vehicle issue. I marched back into the tent and went up to the SGM and told him that I was tired of “this s---.” As we were loudly discussing the subject, our executive officer (XO), LTC Flipczak chimed in and asked what this was all about. He told me that there were no “designated vehicles” for the chaplain. I explained to him that I wasn’t seeking a designated vehicle, that I was seeking the vehicle that was promised to us for use that day. He started asking me why I even needed a vehicle. I explained that I had been required by the OC’s and that the Army Regulations explicitly guarantees the use of a vehicle for the chaplain. He said that the Army Regulations guaranteed that as a field grade officer he was entitled to personal sleeping quarters and that he was now sleeping with the enlisted and so much for Army regulations. To which I replied, “That is your problem, Sir.” We hadn’t had our first cup of coffee, before I had run-ins with a SSG, the SGM, and the XO. I was winning friends all over the place… The SGT went to search for our vehicle. I told SPC Hargrave that we were late and that we should just walk over. And we did…

aid convoy opps


aid convoy opps
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I was the only one in the humvee that could render aid to three others...

aid convoy opps ii


aid convoy opps ii
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I was the driver during several training exercises. Our vehicle seemed to be singled out each time as being ambushed. We got tired of being "injuried" and "killed" all the time.

aid convoy opps stretcher i


aid convoy opps stretcher i
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Helping to carry another soldier to the AMBO.

aid convoy opps stretcher ii


aid convoy opps stretcher ii
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Helping to carry a patient to the ambulance (AMBO).

aid station


aid station
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Offering pastoral care to a notional head injury patient.

aid station back injury


aid station back injury
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I am offering pastoral care for a soldier who "injuried" his back. (We had a mix of real and notional patients.)

convoy briefing


convoy briefing
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SPC Hargrave gives a briefing before our convoy to a chaplain's meeting.